This is not a place of honour.
Nothing valued is here.
What is here was dangerous and repulsive to us.
The danger is to the mind, and it can kill.

This place welcomes the creative and the disturbed.
The sensitive and young are warned.
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This site is a result for endless creativity without the time or commitment to do it... I plan to return to the OG site, but I need some landing place and basic info spots. So, here it is!

Hello, I'm not ZJ*. Do not call me anything, but if you insist, call me freak (no capital F), author or the artist. Something along those lines.I'm still exploring my style, and probably will always be experimenting. But with age comes freedom! I do not shy away from touchy subjects, either through senserity or absurdity. I welcome all interpretations, but all I ask is not to try to link it to me. Keep armchair psychology to my characters. Thanks for understanding!I keep often to myself, I enjoy being a mystery. I used to spend a lot of time on the internet, but these crazy days I like to only chill on idie sites.
I may be hard to get a hold of if it's not related to payment, sorry! I keep my online social contact limited. If I seem distant, I just need a lot of time to warm up. I'm rather mellow and tend to avoid intensity/drama. Life is too short.
I generally struggle to connect with texting. Sorry! GenAI is to blame, I hate the constant doubt everything because of it.Here's the only details I feel like sharing about me, extremely nonbinary, queer and European. It influences my art a lot after all! I like metal, phonk, and other loud music. Really into horror, indie horror games and 80s horror are my fave! I find Zdzisław Beksiński's art deeply fascinating.Against censorship, it has limited my potential in self-shaming for so long, now I shed that fear I can let myself run free. Please, do not imprison yourself; it'll only hurt. Disturb the comfortable, comfort the disturbed, stand in solidarity.

My current projects!Nekenami
A xenofiction series, one of my oldest projects! (12+ years!) It touches on MANY genres, parody of earth, horror, romance, historical fiction, etc. Wholesome, intense, whatever. I like to be comedic and profound, but it stems all from what I find curious in human life. A lot of hypothetical. But these species are not humans, they are people. They should not be compared like a mouse with an elephant.Ascend Beyond
A historical fiction series, monsters that are both angelic and demonic. It has less nuance than Nekenami, but one I write with double meaning. Both tied to interpersonal drama and plot, but trauma is a common element that may mirror other issues.Burning of Soliray
A story I worked on since 2017, it's a very dark and heavy story. A mafia/fictional cartel with alternate history elements that explores (sexual) trauma, queerness/internalized homophobia, mental illness, death, and cultural toxicity. I always struggle to write this story as it's personally mentally challenging too. But I fully intend to share this, you may find snippets here and there.My current fandoms
Buckshot Roulette, Transformers, Deadpool, Look Outside, Fear and Hunger, Vilous, indie horror.
Happy to chat about those subjects, hit me up!

Hi! Since you read this far, I think you should check this out!Music: Chad vanGaalen, Abu-Se-Ken, Susumu Hirasawa, Pinc Louds, Kill The Young
Youtube: Mattias Pilhede, Hannah the Horrible, Mullet-Man Comics, Jeffiot
Books/comics: Underneath the Trees Where No one Sees, *
Films: Paprika, *
*Will add more later!

*Who's ZJ? This evil mother fucker.

Commissions: Closed
Art trades: Closed, but open to inquiry
Current process/waitlist: Link!

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By commissioning me, you understand I do NOT colorpick from OC references, and it's a large part of my process! If you force me to, expect lower quality of work and maybe a fee for my workflow being disrupted.*Artblock left me w/o many examples for the past 2 years, this is being worked on!

---Notes!---
> I DO NOT sell lineart or uncolored art! (Sketches are only open for a limited time, which is never listed here)> For custom design, contact me privately, my price ranges 200-800€. I'm highly selective for non-base designs (which are cheaper), as it takes months of refining as they're made to be drawn. (design tweaks/redesigns are cheaper and more likely to be accepted)> You can approach me with a price and see what I can do within that budget. I'll be more experimental to help with speed. Starting price: 30€. I will not respond to extreme lowball offers.>I'm good with artistic freedom and more specific requests, depends on my mood what I prefer!
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> Prices of extra characters are not listed, I'll tell you personally as it varies a lot! (characters less than 20% of size might be free!) I don't do more than 5 characters currently.> Simple props/backgrounds are free. I'm picky about detailed props/backgrounds currently!>My Do's/Don't highly depends on context, but I don't draw horse heads. I don't do them well!

-Simple style-
Everything is rounded and cute, "chibi-fied"!Bust: 25€ unshaded // 30€ shaded (35€/40€)
Fullbody: 40€ unshaded // 45€ shaded (55€/65€)

-Detailed style-
This is my main style! Best for details/horror!Bust: 35€ unshaded // 40€ shaded (40€/45€)
Fullbody: 70€ unshaded // 85€ shaded (90€/105€)

-Doodle page-
A series of doodles! All colored, some shading, and messing with my style!Starting price will at least have 1 fullbody, 2 busts, and a (silly) sketch. Connecting doodles will have a higher price range (can be a comic-esk or just loosely connected)Minimal color: 150€ starting price
Full color: 200€ starting price

-Pattern-
A repeating pattern, great for backgrounds or banners for anything! These are flexible, if you want something that's not listed here, talk to me and we'll figure out a price! Art for this are smaller sized.Simple bust & fullbody + object: 55€
Detailed headshot with expression 3 variations: 60€
Current commission into a pattern: +20€

-With my character-
Why, thank you! It's flattering!
It highly depends on the idea, it may either get an massive discount or a small extra charge if it's out of character or I don't feel it fully fits them (no judgement! If I accept it, it means I still have fun drawing it!!)Some ideas might be declined, I'm a bit nerdy about my OCs, (likely to decline if I don't feel it fits them, or not comfortable with it) so it's best to just ask me!

-WIP-
Limited time deals, usually more niche like "make this oc another species" stuff, or fandoms I wanna draw, stuff like that

WIP
show unfinished sketches that can be claimed

TOS, contact, etc

Please read this before contacting me, I'll assume you did when you DO contact me!
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I do not work with any form of generative AI, I retain copyright over my art and will use that right.

Contact forum
Only use this for commission or other related questions/etc.

1a. When you contact me for a commission, you've the money. If not, then tell me upfront! Slots can be reserved for 2-3 weeks2a. I treat these (somewhat) professionally; I don't tolerate flirting, hostility, etc.
-I may decline commissions if communication is unclear-3a. The listed prices are for PERSONAL USE ONLY. If you want the prices for commercial/advertisement use, contact me!
-You can request a license upgrade at a later date too-4a. I can decline commission requests for any reason if money hasn't been sent yet. However, cancellation of the commission on my end will ALWAYS receive a refund. Full refunds are ONLY for when I haven't started. Otherwise, it's a partial refund depending on how far I got.
-ex: 50% when the lineart has been finished-Your money will NEVER be held hostage.

Terms of service

1b. You've the right and should point out my mistakes. It's encouraged, even!
-It's is done in the incorrect phase (ex: anatomy mistake in the coloring phase) it will come with a fee. If it's done in the right phase, it's free-2b. You'll be upfront and clear in what you want, attempts to 'cheat' the pricing will result in cancellation of the commission.
I have a no-shaming policy!
-ex: requesting many edits to get variations of one art piece, instead of requesting that and paying for variations upfront. Or trying to trick me into drawing fetish art-3b. (fullbody/busts ONLY) Commissions are often done in 4 weeks, but sometimes I have health issues and it can take longer.
You'll receive weekly updates, or if a phase is completed, whichever comes up faster. (If there's delays, you'll be informed)If I take longer than 2 months, you will get a full refund.*
-This does NOT apply if you take more than 48 hours with EACH reply, as this deeply impacts my speed-

1c. Refunds requested from your end will be PARTIAL; if you decide I'm not a good fit for your idea, you can back out BEFORE approving the rough sketch. (which is done BEFORE payment)
Once the LINEART is done, refunds CAN'T be issued. Refunds can't be requested at ALL on COMPLETED digital artworks. YOU are responsible for keeping the file safe!
If it's an emergency, this can be discussed if you provide evidence2c. It's HEAVILY preferred you link me if you repost, however my credits are in the watermark
-Do NOT share the UNWATERMARKED file PUBLICALLY. This will make copyright requests harder-3c. Small scale production (under 10 items) is fine, stickers, keychains, shirts, etc.
Ask me first before sharing outside your family/friend group.4c. Edits are ok, CLEARLY note it's edited by you! And I don't allow fetish/sexual edits, political/offensive/drama inducing edits, or ANY added texts.
-The text is to avoid me writing a long list of "not allowed" and "allowed", and I'd rather keep this rather loose-

How I work!

1. You contact me, we discuss your idea to see if I can do it - or not! This is free.2. Yes, I can work with this idea! If it's not a commission type like from above, you'll mention your budget instead. I'll make a rough sketch at this point.
-this ONLY applies to bust/fullbody, otherwise payment is upfront-3. You approve and send the payment.4. I'll start the commission officially now, I'll contact you on every stage so you may point out mistakes, or weekly if it takes longer!
-Check TOS for extra details-

5. It is done! You get a watermarked & watermark-free version, you may share the watermarked version anywhere you'd like. But the watermark-free version MUST be kept private, in case of copyright issues (unauthorized reuploads, tracing, plagiarizing, etc)6. I may or may not upload the commission (depends if it fits my usual posts). You are free to request for me to upload the commission! I may have forgotten.
If you don't want it uploaded, TELL me RIGHT AWAY!!7. Want to do more with the completed art? Check the TOS! The C section explains what you can do!

Too much hassle? Too much talking? No problem!
Keep an eye on my "surprise" commissions when they open, which are "give ref/instructions, get art" instead! However, it'll have a lot less control, and minimal or no check-ins.

PSA! THIS IS HOW I BEHAVE!
I DO NOT USE DISCORD ANYMORE!!!!!

I've got more accounts than these, I do not list accounts I don't upload on. I DO NOT ACCEPT COMMISSIONS THROUGH THOSE! I only accept commissions through THESE ACCOUNTS LISTED HERE. I WILL NEVER GET UPSET TO PROVE IT'S REALLY ME! I'll NOT advertise unless it's the accounts LINKED HERE!
I do NOT use Paypal for anything over 20 euro, and I ALWAYS price things in euros. I do BANK TRANSFER through WISE! Be safe out there!

Here's where to directly message me + some info about that
Please note this is for commission/trade/collabs/etc inquries and to highlight official accounts.
I'm not comfortable chatting with random people 90% of the time, try leaving comments instead!

IF SOMEONE CLAIMS TO BE ME ON DISCORD, IT'S A FAKE!

Telegram: ZJfreak
Outside of email, best way to DM me
Email: DM me, BUT my emails are branded @freaks-and-delights.com ANYTHING ELSE IS FAKE!
Email is ALWAYS used to send payment info, I will not accept payments if that's refused.Currently looking for alternatives for messaging! Feel free to suggest!I'm best reached through private messages on the sites listed here until then.

"Can you draw/write/etc for me?"
I don't do free work, don't ask for it. maybe doing your mom tho"Can I do xyz with your art?"
Anything beyond looking at my art and saving it, ask. But I'm likely to agree to it, just had a lot of struggles with plagiarism/theft in the past and I'm done with it"When will xyz update?"
Whenever I can and want to. Trust me that I'm trying. Please don't ask about updates, I'll label something if it's canceled. (and very likely to block those comments) Though I'm not immune to a good compliment to get motivated"Can I make fanart/fanfics?"
My OCs? Ask first. I've had so many horrible experiences, to the point it ruined my lore/workflow. I prefer to work in peace. Maybe I'll change my mind with new pleasant exchanges. But my fan designs and stuff? Feel free! It's not mine anyways."Why do you take so long to reply outside of commissions?"
I want everyone I owe anything (commission or trade) feel that I can be relied upon, otherwise? Meh.
I've had many exchanges where people placed an expectation on me, got disappointed, and got upset over it. I'm not my art/writing.
I'm low energy, direct to avoid wasting time, reserved, hard to read, and slow to warm up. I'm underwhelmingly normal and likely am easy to weird out with common online behaviour.
Talk to me like we're sharing a spot at the bus stop at first. Yknow, start with a "how was today?" Depth comes later for me.