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Nothing valued is here.
What is here was dangerous and repulsive to us.
The danger is to the mind, and it can kill.

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The sensitive and young are warned.
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Art featured here is from 2025 to 2026

I've decided mainly to highlight art from late 2025 and onward as that's when I found what I exactly wanted to do, and took my art more seriously now that I had a purpose. Of course, I'm still having fun!I'm a jack of all traits, master of none. But that means I'm excited to try anything new! Though, I draw monster designs and humans the most, and mostly stay away from realism due to preferring stylization instead.

Hello, I'm not ZJ*. Do not call me anything, but if you insist, call me freak (no capital F), author or the artist. Something along those lines.I'm still exploring my style, and probably will always be experimenting. But with age comes freedom! I do not shy away from touchy subjects, either through sincerity or absurdity. I welcome all interpretations, but all I ask is not to try to link it to me. Keep armchair psychology to my characters. Thanks for understanding!I may be hard to get a hold of if it's not related to payment, sorry! I keep my online social contact limited. If I seem distant, I just need a lot of time to warm up. I'm rather mellow and tend to avoid intensity/drama. Life is too short.
I generally struggle to connect over just text.-Here are the only details I feel like sharing about me: extremely nonbinary, queer and European. It influences my art a lot after all!
I like metal, phonk, and other loud music. Really into horror; indie horror games and 80s horror are my fave! I find Zdzisław Beksiński's art deeply fascinating.Against censorship in these times. Disturb the comfortable, comfort the disturbed, stand in solidarity with the unusual.

My current projects!Nekenami
A xenofiction series, one of my oldest projects! (14+ years!) It touches on MANY genres and styles: parody of earth, horror, romance, historical fiction, etc. Wholesome, intense, whatever. I like to be comedic and profound, but it stems all from what I find curious in human life. A lot of hypothetical. But these species are not humans, they are people. Like a cat wouldn't have human morals and shed its instincts if it suddenly could talk.This is my current focus, a short comic (hopefully under 50 pages) is in the process and set to start this year, and a rough draft of a story and another comic is at work too... Which may take years to get to that stage.Galafate/Mesania
This was some worldbuilding that started around 2017/2018, but something I always struggled to express despite its importance in my universe.
Mesania is a fictional country in Europe with its own history, with a focus on its town Galafate and its capital Soliray. This series is focused on characters, and is mostly expressed through humour. This series is deliberately lower effort!Currently I'm preparing to start this series by drawing doodles with short descriptions and short comics, with some story lines planned. Still figuring out the style, first 'issue' releasing this year!Ascend Beyond
A historical fiction series, monsters that are both angelic and demonic. It has less nuance than Nekenami, but one I write with double meaning. Both tied to interpersonal drama and plot, but trauma is a common element that may mirror other issues. This also came from 2017.Burning of Soliray
A story I worked on since 2017, it's a dark and heavy story. A fictional mafia/cartel with alternate history elements that explores (sexual) trauma, queerness/internalized homophobia, mental illness, death, etc. I always struggle to write this story as it's personally mentally challenging too. But I fully intend to share this, you may find snippets here and there.My current fandoms
Buckshot Roulette, Transformers, Deadpool, Look Outside, Fear and Hunger, Vilous, indie horror.I'm happy to chat about this with fellow fans!

Hi! Since you read this far, I think you should check this out! (I try to list some lesser known things here!)Music: Chad vanGaalen, Abu-Se-Ken, Susumu Hirasawa, Pinc Louds, Kill The YoungYoutube: Mattias Pilhede, Hannah the Horrible, Mullet-Man Comics, JeffiotBooks/comics: Underneath the Trees Where No one Sees, *Films: Paprika, **Will add more later!

*Who's ZJ? This evil mother fucker.

Commissions: Open!
Art trades: Open!
Current process/waitlist: Link!
Currently going through a rework of how I handle commissions, this is a WIP

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6th August, 2026 (finished texts + TOS to reflect my current workflow)
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---Notes!---
> Currently, I'm not interested in doing fully custom designs any time soon. But I do accept design commissions that are either tweaks or redesigns, starting at 250€ (I'll do on base, starting at 100€)1. I'm good with artistic freedom and more specific requests, depends on my mood what I prefer! (Also depends on the budget; I'll need artistic freedom for lower budgets!) My YCHs are best to get art cheaper!2. For extra characters, you will need to order more hours, I don't do more than 3 characters (at full size) at this moment, though it depends on the request as well.
(for example, you want to draw a giant with a bunch of mini characters, I can draw more depending on the details)3. Props and design details are already taken into consideration when accepting payment. I'll consider doing simple backgrounds if you order over 5+ hours, currently not doing high detail backgrounds (I need to practice it first!)4. My Do's/Don't highly depends on context, but I don't draw horse heads. I don't do them well!

-Simple style
Everything is more rounded and sized down, this style is faster to draw! But some details will be simplified to fit this style, and it doesn't work as well on non-cute ideas
Only sold as fullbody or as multiple headshots!--Detailed style
This is my usual style, this can handle different vibes/emotions better. Especially when expressions matter most, or you want something more horor-esk or more intimacy in the art.
Sold as both fullbody and solo bust!

Below here is an inspiration board! These items can be requested if they seem fun to you!

All commissions start at 60€!I've decided to sell hours rather than just listing base prices. You may pick themes, the style, or/and say what you want the focus point to be. (Posing, expressions, etc are possible too, depends on my mood if I want to work on detailed requests) I only take commissions that fit me, but I am flexible!You cannot pick my lineart or shading style (you can request to be unshaded), I make my own colors preferably unless it's for a reason.
(You can tell me if you want a cold/warm palette, pink/purple/orange/etc hue, or send a color palette like this. I'll let you know if I do/don't accept it.)I've realized I work best when I'm allowed to be free with it! But I'm always happy to hear out any commission requests. Reach out freely!__________________________For 60€, you can get either a...If you want my simple style: A shaded fullbody (solo, or 1 tiny extra character) OR 2 shaded headshots (together or separate)If you want my detailed style: Shaded bust, OR if the design is simple, I can do an unshaded fullbodyI can handle complexity well, I'll tell you if I find it detailed or simple!
(Sergals w/o clothes or unusual details are considered simple!)
__________________________You can pay for more hours, more hours, more details! But I suggest to pay upfront for high detail, instead of paying for it later.
As I work with the budget in mind, and will simplify/skip details if I've been given too little time, and I'll usually not correct it retroactively.
It'll take more time to correct it than working with those details upfront.
-But time can always be added. I'll let you know if it's possible! But done is done, I won't ask more than I need.Each extra added hour is 25€, if you order over 12+ hours, you'll get a small discount. This only applies bigger projects (anything other than simple busts/fullbodies, like comics, refs, etc)

-Doodle page-
A series of doodles! These are great to show off the personality of your character, or to tell a small storyThese usually are 1-3 fullbodies, 2-3 busts, and some extra doodles, all in both simple & detailed style. No exacts for this, depends on the time!These start at 150€-200€, this commission type is flexible with requesting more hours!

-Reference sheet-
A reference sheet for your character! These come with notes with how they work, (optional) expressions, and clear design instructions if you need those!
I'm picky with accepting these requests, and I prefer to have drawn your character normally first before drawing the reference sheet! Sergals are more likely to be accepted.This starts at 250-300€, heavily depending on details you'd want to be included

-Pattern-
A repeating pattern, meant to be used either as a background or a profile banner. These can be done in a simple or detailed style, they include icons, props, or anything else related to the character/idea.These start at 60€ in the simple style, which gets you 1 fullbody and 1 headshot in the simple style, and an icon/prop. (This is an listed example for that price, there are a other options!)

-comic-
I'm offering comics, either with a script (text OR doodles are both good) or we come up with something together. But I can only work with someone who knows what they want! I can work with something like this:
"I want a comic with A and B, with their first interaction together shown, before it ends with a timeskip with them still being friends at a much older age"
I'm picky with this, starts at 300-400€

-With my character-
I'd love to draw my character with yours! I may give a discount depending how into the idea I am, and how much it fits the character. (It'll never drop below 60€ though. I will decline ideas if I don't think it fits me enough)I allow any dynamic, as long you understand this doesn't make the interaction canon to my lore! But that means I allow all dynamics, friendship, ship, enemies, etc! Let's have fun!

-Avatar-
Need an avatar or something similar? I can do so! This will be more detailed than the usual bust, and a more fun background to make it look good at a smaller size!Avatars are flexible for alternative versions, but I don't offer animations (maybe blinking? But not more than that.)This starts at 60€ with only 1 version, can go up to 90€ for multiple versions (or detail focus, such as jaws/eyes/etc)

TOS, contact, etc

Please read this before contacting me, I'll assume you did when you DO contact me!
TOS last edited: August 2026

I do not work with any form of generative AI, I retain copyright over my art and will use that right.

Here you can email me!
(I accept DMs too for commissions!)

1a. When you contact me for a commission, you've the money. If not, then tell me upfront! Slots can be reserved for 2-8 weeks, depending on demand, being a returning client and the value of the commission request.2a. I treat these (somewhat) professionally; I don't tolerate flirting, hostility, etc.
-I may decline commissions if communication is unclear-3a. The listed prices are for PERSONAL USE ONLY. If you want the prices for commercial/advertisement use, contact me and explain how you'd use it!
-You can request a license upgrade at a later date too-4a. I can decline commission requests for any reason if money hasn't been sent yet. However, cancellation of the commission on my end will ALWAYS receive a refund.
Full refunds are ONLY for when I haven't started. Otherwise, it's a partial refund depending on how far I got and how long it took to request it.
(Refunds after 14 days will be less than 50%)Your money will NEVER be spent until completion.

Terms of service
I DO NOT ALLOW ANY AI USAGE!

1b. You've the right and should point out my mistakes. It's encouraged, even! As it makes it easier for me!
-It's done in the incorrect phase (ex: anatomy mistake in the coloring phase) you'll need to pay, but there's a chance I'll decline to avoid burnout with the art-
If it's done in the right phase, it's free!2b. You'll be upfront and clear in what you want, trying to 'cheat' the pricing will result in cancellation of the order
I have a no-shaming policy!
-ex: requesting many edits to get variations of one art piece, instead of requesting that and paying for variations upfront. Or trying to trick me into drawing fetishes-3b. (fullbody/busts ONLY) Commissions are often done in 4 weeks, but sometimes I have health issues (or extreme heat), and it can take longer.You'll receive updates every 10 days, or if a phase is completed, whichever comes up faster.
(If there's delays, you'll be informed)(fullbody/busts ONLY) If I take longer than 2 months, (or 3 months during heatwave season, June-August)
you will get a full refund.*
-This does NOT apply if you take more than 48 hours with EACH reply, as this deeply impacts my speed-

1c. Refunds requested from your end will be PARTIAL; if you decide I'm not a good fit for your idea, you can back out BEFORE approving the rough sketch. (which is done BEFORE payment with busts/fullbody)
Once the LINEART is done, refunds CAN'T be issued.
If it's an emergency, this can be discussed if you provide evidence
Refunds are handled differently for complexer commisssions, be sure to ask upfront if you have doubts-
Refunds can't be requested at ALL on COMPLETED digital artworks. YOU are responsible for keeping the file safe!-2c. It's HEAVILY preferred you link me if you repost, however my credits are in the watermark
-Do NOT share the UNWATERMARKED file PUBLICLY. This will make copyright requests harder-3c. Small scale production (under 10 items) is fine, stickers, keychains, shirts, other merchandise, etc.
Ask me first before sharing outside your family/friends.
Does NOT apply with orders brought from my store!4c. Edits are ok, CLEARLY note it's edited by you! And I don't allow fetish/sexual edits, political/offensive/drama inducing edits, or ANY added texts. Ask me if in doubt.
-The text is to avoid me writing a long list of "not allowed" and "allowed", and I'd rather keep this rather loose-

How I work!

1. You contact me, we discuss your idea to see if I can do it - or not! This is free.2. Yes, I can work with this idea! If it's a bust/fullbody, I'll make a very rough draft for you to approve before sending the money.
But for anything complex, I require upfront payment.
-Unless you have a certain budget, I'll tell you my estimated price-3. The commission has officially started, I'll keep you up to date! Check the TOS for more details

Too much hassle? Too much talking? No problem!
Keep an eye on my "surprise" commissions when they open, which are "give ref/instructions, get art" instead! However, it'll have a lot less control, and minimal or no check-ins.

4. It is done! You get a watermarked and a watermark-free version, you may share the watermarked version anywhere you'd like.
But the watermark-free version MUST be kept private, in case of copyright issues.
(Such as unauthorized reuploads, tracing, plagiarizing, etc)5. I may or may not upload the commission (depends if it fits my usual posts). You are free to request for me to upload the commission! I may have forgotten.
If you don't want it uploaded, TELL me RIGHT AWAY!! No fees for private commissions currently!!6. Want to do more with the completed art? Check the TOS! The C section explains what you can do!

PSA! THIS IS HOW I BEHAVE!
I DO NOT USE DISCORD!!!!!

I've got more accounts than these, I do not list accounts I don't upload on. I DO NOT ACCEPT COMMISSIONS THROUGH THOSE! I only accept commissions through THESE ACCOUNTS LISTED HERE. I WILL NEVER GET UPSET TO PROVE IT'S REALLY ME! I'll NOT advertise unless it's the accounts LINKED HERE!
I RARELY use Paypal (especially over 35€), and almost ALWAYS use bank transfers through WISE

Here's where to directly message me + some info about that
Please note this is for commission/trade/collabs/etc inquries and to highlight official accounts.
I'm not comfortable chatting with unknown users 95% of the time, try leaving comments first instead!

IF SOMEONE CLAIMS TO BE ME ON DISCORD, IT'S A FAKE!

Telegram: ZJfreak
Outside of email, best way to DM me
Email: DM me or use the forum in commissions, my business email ends with a @freaks-and-delights.com
Email is ALWAYS used to send payment info, I will not accept a commission if that's refused.Currently looking for alternatives for messaging! Feel free to suggest!I'm best reached through private messages on the sites listed here until then.

"Can you draw/write/etc for me?"
I don't do free work, don't ask for it. maybe doing your mom tho"Can I do xyz with your art?"
Anything beyond looking at my art and saving it, ask. But I'm likely to agree to it, just had a lot of struggles with plagiarism/theft in the past and I'm done with it"When will xyz update?"
Whenever I can and want to. Trust me that I'm trying. Please don't only ask about updates and nothing else, I'll label something if it's canceled. (and very likely to block those comments)
Though I'm not immune to a good compliment to get motivated"Can I make fanart/fanfics?"
My OCs? Ask first. I've had so many bad experiences, to the point it ruined my lore/workflow. I prefer to work in peace. Maybe I'll change my mind with new pleasant exchanges.
But my fan designs and stuff? Feel free! It's not mine anyways."Why do you take so long to reply outside of commissions?"
I want everyone I owe anything (commissions or trades) feel that I can be relied upon, otherwise? Meh.
I've had many exchanges where people placed an expectation on me, got disappointed, and got upset over it. I'm not my art/writing.
I'm low energy, direct to avoid wasting time, reserved, hard to read, and slow to warm up. I'm underwhelmingly normal and likely am easy to weird out with common online behaviour.
Talk to me like we're sharing a spot at the bus stop at first. Yknow, start with a "how was today?"

you're not supposed to see this! WIPs/code holder. Now SHOO!

WIPs/YCHs for sale
YCHs or unfinished sketches for sale, something something, idk